♥ Wednesday, January 14, 2009♥
todae darling off.
seriously i think i getting more n more worst.
i tends to cry easily.
at nite 8 plus darling bring mi n baby go find tony awhile.
i noe everyone angry with us cos we insist bringing baby out.
darling actualli wan bring mi go onli cos he noe i cry everyday.
but no one help take care baby n so i bring her along.
i scare her cry den nobodi can help oso.
haiz.................................
den in e end everyone was angry....
i noe its our fault.
but i just wan let go of my feelings outside onli.
i've been staying at hm n feel very depress.
i duno y i become like this.
i even tot of jumping down.......
i noe i'm stupid..
i noe everyone will ask mi dun do this.
I NOE!!!
but i duno y i will go think.....
i wish darling can acc mi till my confinement finish...
but i noe its impossible.......
HAIZ!!
just wish confinement can end faster.
now its onli e 1st wk.long way to go.......
no one visit mi oso.
i realli feel BORED N LONELY!!!!!!
i wan a TV!!!
my room no tv.super sian!!
haiz.....hope i can strike 4d den i can get one liao.
realli feel sad recently.
i've been making darling family members angry.
I FEEL SO SORRY!!!
all my fault.
hope everyone can be like last time so happy.
cos i keep on think bout negative things.
i realli hate myself.
y am i still so playful.
y i still duno hw to think.
y i so stubborn.
all is mi!!
i'm realli sorry to everyone!!
i will learn from my mistakes from now on.
i hope i can be cheerful like last time.
i kept thinking bout e past.
last time was so happy........
but now.......................?????????
so have to accept n adapt all e changes.
i noe i think too much alr...
i'm trying my best nt to think liao.
HAIZ............!!!!!!!!!!
yvonne love ryan
